Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Here We Go Again.....

Today I went to have my bone survey done, which is basically a set of x-rays of my entire body so they can see if there are any places in which the Multiple Myeloma Cells have decided to gather and have a "tumor growing Party". Just being there brought back a flood of memories, and I'm thinkin to myself....."shit.....here we go again". The same routines, repeat themselves like an old black and white movie that flutters. I feel like wearing one of those sandwich board signs that says "I HAVE CANCER SO I KNOW THE DRILL"! LOL
The same things happen.....being escorted down a hall by an X-ray Tech telling me to remove my clothes and jewelry, how to put the gown on (that's always a helpful reminder though as there are so many friggin strings and openings, if you don't get it right your Bum or Hoo-Ha will be flashing down the hall. LOL Here's the key for your locker to put your personal items in and be sure to lock it and bring the key with you and when we're done, please remove the gown and place it in the laundry basket when you have your clothes back on. During the body scan it's "Don't Move"....."Hold your Breathe"...."Now Breathe". All of the awkward body positions you have to get into to get the correct angle. The coldness and sterile look of the room. The back breaking hard table you have to lay on and when your bones stick out at your hips, due to no body fat, well, it's not too comfortable. Good thing though is it doesn't last long, as it's over pretty quick but they did have to repeat the upper body head & cervical as I had forgotten to remove my teeny upper ear piercing so I guess I messed up the x-rays from the metal. I forgot the little earring in there so OOOOOOOOOOPS....sorry bout that! My Mom came over a bit after I got home with her adorable new little puppy Abby, so we visited for awhile and then I finished the shredding of old bank papers and other info that is part of my spring fling cleaning process. It's funny that a few of my friends have emailed me and said OMG why are you still cleaning and doing all that hard work after just getting such crappy news? I would love to sound like Martha Stewart and say that's just what you do during spring cleaning, and yes.....that's part of it, but I think the bigger part is the compulsion to not leave a big fat mess that family will have to sort through when I get sick or die. I'd rather leave a clean house with everything in order, with important papers all together and labeled for "easy reading". Guess that's it for now......I will be going to the X-ray facility tomorrow to pick up the results and see what they have to say. My usual MO is to pick up any kind of results and read them myself, so I know what's going on NOW. I get quite impatient about waiting for lab or test results, and again, being an "informed consumer" gives me some time to digest what the results are so when I go to see Dr. Nair (which won't be for about 2 weeks), I'll know what if any questions I need answered. I am supposed to hear from the Pharmacy that dispenses my chemotherapy sometime this week to set up a delivery day, so these results are important to know right away as you can't be on chemo and have radiation at the same time, so IF there are any tumors growing they would want to ZAP them first and then begin chemo. So, fingers crossed there are no Tumor Parties going on so I can go straight to the chemo. Sheesh....never thought those words would come out of my mouth.......ready to get started on Chemotherapy!!! See how the world of Cancer is so topsy turvy, convoluted and crazy?

3 comments:

Kim, denese and kd dog said...

Jan,

we are prayig for you every single day, many imes a day. Stay strong!

Kim and denese in Utah

Susan said...
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Susan said...

Glad to see that you have a sense of humor...I'll walk beside you down those long halls and be with you on those cold hard tables only if you promise to get your gown on right :) Praying that exray results come back ok..keep in touch