Thursday, July 16, 2009

IN THE HOSPITAL RIGHT NOW....

I really don't have the energy to write down all that has transpired in the last few days, so maybe I'll be feeling better in the next few days and let ya'll know what's going on. Bottom line.......I have been getting worse over the last week (since the velcade last fri) and my WBC have become life threateningly low. When you body cannot produce it's own protection, the ONLY thing to do is hospitalize me and get me on IV antibiotics. I saw an "infection specialist" today, so only him and Nair will be my doctors. I am breaking down in tears right now....I HATE hospitals. The noises, the interruptions, the IV machine noise, uncomfortable beds, bad food....just everything about them and I hate being here so much. I had no choice though.....I could literally die if I had let this go untreated. It's called a "neutrapenic fever". Pray for me.

13 comments:

Susan said...

Prayers are always being said for you...hugs...

colleen said...

I'm so sorry that you are back in the hospital..My prayers are with you...I love you ..stay strong...

tk said...

Praying and sending good thoughts your way

Teresa

Cassie said...

Jan, just began following you here. Prayers being said.

sussan said...

Hi Jan,
Just spent some time ready your story, my mum is in hospital she has MM and we are waiting for results the dr's r sure she has relapsed. she is not well and i am trying to read up about MM so i can understand what the dr's r talking about. my prayers are with you i hope you get out of hospital soon

Sandy said...

"Fear not, for I am with you..." and so are we, so take a deep breath and try to get some rest - we'll keep the prayer chain going while you sleep.

Roobeedoo said...

Wishing you well!

The Eden Group said...

Dearest Jan, my thoughts and prayers are with you. The Eden Group with put our arms together in prayer for you when we next meet. Remember, you are embraced by so much love and positive energy.

Much love and hugs,

Kala

Barbara said...

Jan,
I have been following your recent struggles. But you are strong girl, so fight with all your might. You are so beautiful and surrounded by sooo many loving friends and families. Your fans in cyber land love your adventures and update.. hang in there a better day is around the corner. hugs sent along the way.. barbara

Brother Ted said...

Your joy of life will give you strength as you knock down this fever. From afar, I send my best wishes for you and an early trip home from the hospital.

Kim, denese and kd dog said...

Jan
Praying for you from Utah. Kim has had his 2nd stem cell transplant and starting to regain strength. We pray for you daily and for your doctors to have the wisdom to heal you!!

denese

Linda said...

Jan- I am praying for a quick recovery!!!

Cam said...

I have got this side of the world covered Jan, praying from afar. That is all I can do from here, though it is also what I would be doing if I was there too.

Cam
Australia